Right before I go to bed, I have this habit of cleaning my room. I don't break out dust rags and Febreeze or anything, but I usually put away any clothes laying around, arrange the various bottles of lotion and detangler into their designated corner of my dresser, and lastly, I make sure my closet door is closed. I can't sleep with the closet door open. It's just... a thing. (I know I'm not the only one.)
But the thing is, I always end up leaving the closet door open until the last possible second. Maybe I forgot to put away the last bit of laundry, or am picking out a shirt for the next day, or something. But shutting that door is always the last thing I end up doing.
I'm a "just in case" person. I like to keep doors open until the last possible second.
Thing is, I'm starting to feel that second approaching. As I plan my last bonfires and leave my last comments on the deserted pages of old friends I'm about to allow myself to let go of, it's like the nightly moment when I burrow under the gray/blue/white comforter and wonder if I've forgotten to do something important... because I know when I wake up, it'll be gone forever.
I keep feeling like I'm forgetting something. Which things should I let myself lose forever?
It's a tough one.
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